It's been a long minute. Not as long as I had thought. We haven't talked in a while, you and me. I finally got some time to check in with you. How do you feel?
The last year and half well, has been, well you know how it's been.
I feel like I am 10 feet away from the next checkpoint but I keep walking in a circle where I stand. I don't know what is going to take me there. I don't know what's going to push me to that checkpoint.
I feel like I've been really stressed. My mind is helping me hide it. I don't know if I need a vacation. Some time off. Or just a day to myself but I don't know what it is I need right now. I just know that I'm stressed and my mind is helping me hide it. But I see it. I feel it but I don't know what I'm supposed to do to release it.
I feel fatigued.
I feel like I need to find the simple methods again.
I do feel great, I do. I don't know what it is why I don't feel as.. happy? As I think I should be?
I think I've grown less romantic about life. I feel like I'm one foot in and one foot out.
For the first time in a while I don't have the answers or the self awareness to figure this out. It's confusing, it's pleasing and it's somehow getting me excited.
Are these just growing pains?
Or am I just being born again?
- God is Love
